hey, i just saw your pics! i couldn't believe i actually got to see what you looked like, i was so excited! you're soooo pretty!

and i'm really sorry to hear about your grandmother. i'm glad she's doing okay. and i think it's great that you're going back to school, i'm hope you enjoy yourself.

hey, happy birthday, girl! hope you're enjoying yourself. you have the same birthday as my friend molly. ^_^

i hope your day goes great!

oh my goodness, it's been five months? i had no idea that much time had passed since you guys have been dating. time goes by fast when you're in college! haha.

but back to the subject at hand. although i think it may be unfair to israel, i do kind of agree with the comment below. if you guys have been dating for this long, he should at least give you the answer you deserve other than "i'm just not sure of myself yet." even if he still wants to be in the "we're just friends" phase of your relationship, that would at least give you some kind of idea as to where you stand in his life. it sounds like you really love him the way you talk about him, and he could at least return the favor by giving you a STRAIGHT answer for once. if he cared about you the way he says does, he would stop being so vague with you. i'm sure that things will be fine with you two in the future, but just be careful, hun. your heart is on the line.

hey liana, i think u right that u dont need titles..just ask urslf whether u love him..

if ur heart says yes, thn he is the one for u..and he will also need some time to make himslf realize this..You are actually special to him, he did not realise how five months flew went by, and its just that he neva sat down and thought about u so seriously that is when u asked him how to introduce him to ur ppl he did not have a proper answer, and he doesnt know why evn aftr five months he still hasnt asked u to b his gal!

now that u have asked him..he will now think abt it..and make sure during this period, that is from now on u start being a veryy nice gal , dont do anything to upset him him specaially now, coz he is gona make a decision now..

all the best!

aww. i'm sorry your friends are busy on your birthday.

but at least you'll get to go to that awesome concert with your sister! hope you have hella fun!

may 11th is my birthday... its also mothers day aswell.

xox melody

your friend's getting married too? my friend's getting married too, in two weeks. i'm excited for her, but at the same time, it must be so stressful.

and i'm glad that you're getting your tests out of the way! you must be excited to get things all done.

woah you sounds so busy!

he did promise not to drink as much and he hasnt done till now (so thats like 3 months or more) i think its just a mistake so i will let it go, but if it turns into something regular, im  off!

well i didn't actually tell her on my own, it kind of fell into my lap. i gave her my wallet cuz i said i would lend her some money, and the condoms that i keep in there fell out. so she asked me why i had them and, after something like that, i couldn't exactly lie to her.

and i agree with alifeoflie. if you want to find out if he wants you for more than just sex, try not giving him any for a few weeks. i kno it sounds mean to test him like that, but i think its the only way to find out. you could always ask him straight up, but then again, any man can tell a lie, so you can't really rely on that method. it may be hard, but stay abstinent for a bit. see what happens. good luck!

wanna know if he really wants you to stick around?!

try not to give him any...

see if that would make him change in a way.

see if he'll still be interested in you...

a guy who just wants you for that will never take you seriously

and it means that he not really seeing you for what you are..

try to talk to him about it too....

that could help. but do it in a casual way...

take it from someone who's been there and done that...

hm. sounds like you have a bit of a problem.

i'm so glad that you're talking to javier again! it's always good to let bygones be bygones and get a friend back. grudges and hate aren't good for the heart. and it's understandable that javier would be worried. he might just be worried about you and your feelings.

as for israel (and i read "an eventful weekend") and i was a little surprised that he didn't call you his girl, especially after everything you've been through. but he could just be wanting to take his time before he commits a serious relationship. typical guy stuff.  just give him a little time. i'm sure everything will work out.

good luck with everything!

look, javier hasnt really been in your life for ages so he really doesnt have any rights to try to give you advice.....

I dont think what isreal did/ said was right but i dont think that becase of it you shouldnt be with him..... maybe talk to him again but at the end of the day he washonest with you...

Hey girl... it's great to hear from you! I'm sorry I haven't commented much lately. You read my entry so you know what's up.
I'm sorry to hear about your kidney stones.. I'm happy to hear you are feeling better. I've never had them but I've heard that they hurt something terrible.. espically when passing them.
Talk to you soon!
Love,
~Mystic

don't worry about your entries being about Israel, hon! if i had a guy treat me the way he treats you, i'd be RANTING! haha. he seems really into you, not like the other guys you were with. ^_^

go on rambling, girl. my love life is (sufficed to say) practically non-existent, so it's good to hear that someone else's is doing well.

Hey thanks for the comment. I am addicted to that song lol.

xx Melody

Sorry to hear about your grandma. I hope she's better soon.

Thanks for the offer for helping with areas. But, up to last September, I've lived my entire life in LA and Orange Counties. So, I'm pretty familiar with all the different neighborhoods. But, thanks anyway.

some times older ppl take to surgerys different its what ever they gave her to put her to sleep during it, i know ive seen many ppl, be really confused and basicly out of it for a few days after sometimes to the point to haveing to be restrained.

but i do hope that that is all ur grandma is going through and good luck with everything

hey you! nice to see you back on mdd again! it's been a while!

i'm glad things are going well for you and israel. hopefully he treats you well in the future. he sounds really awesome. i hope you feel better too. ^_^

well that's good that he's not all about sex. this kind of thing's never happened to ME before either, so i don't really know if my advice will help. but i think it could work with this one! he seems nice enough, just make sure to stay on your toes. take care!

showing lubb.

aww. that's so cool that you have a job that you actually like going to. i like my job, but it doesn't sound nearly as rewarding as your's does.

thanks for the advice on luke. i don't think i'm gonna tell him how i feel. he seems way happier with his crush right now. i don't wanna spoil it for him.

Hey sweetie.. I was kinda wondering where you went. Sorry you've been so exhausted lately.

Well, I read your past 3 enteries, and I think that maybe you should ease up on the new guy a little bit. I know... I'm one of those people too that I fall to fast for someone but keep yourself a little guarded and have some fun! God, knows you deserve it.

As for your job. I love the fact you posted about your job. As you know I'm in school for nursing and I just love to hear about nurses and their different jobs. As for me, I don't think I could ever work with babies.. They are so dear and precious. I think it would just kill me to do work like that. I know that you eventually get kinda 'detached' but I did hospice for awhile and I just couldn't get used to it. It was like I know that people die, we all do... but it made me feel like sh*t, ya know? I thought about it all the time & was even obsessed with the obits, checking to see if my client(s) have died. It was awful for me. Anyhow, I'm glad to see you're back and sorry for such a long entry.
~Love Mystic

Wow, you're lucky to feel that way.  Most of us hate to get up in the morning, dread going to work, and have miserable days. 

Makes me think about my future a little though.

i kno that i'm someone who doesn't really believe in relationships, so my advice won't be very valuable. but i think that if you really like israel, then you should go for it. and if he likes you and cares for you as much as you say he does, then he won't hurt you like the others have. just be sure to stay on your toes. be careful...

lots o' luv.

hey! long time no talk. i'm sorry i haven't been commenting in a while, i've been working these past few weeks trying to make as much money as i can before i go back to school.

now about enrique. i think that you should stay friends with him, but let him kno straight up that you don't want anything more than friendship. maybe he didn't really understand the message you gave him last time. just be straight and tell him. that way, he'll really get the picture. but don't cut off all ties with him, like don't drop him completely.  i think cutting him off and not seeing him is kinda mean. i've been drop kicked so many times, and it hurts a lot. and besides, it's always nice to have a guy friend.

but i'm soooo glad that you found a guy that you can comfortably talk to and WON'T pull moves on you! israel sounds like a great guy.

HEY im Melody. i think israel sounds really sweet! And about enrique, just keep him as a friend. feel free to comment on my diary. no one ever does :( it must be boring lol

xx take care and good luck

love xxmelodyxx

My sister's name is Liana! I can now tell her I met another Liana (if that's your real name, lol)

2. Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? No

3. Would you date someone who was outside your race? Sure

4. Whats your biggest turn off? Smokers or drinkers

5. Whats your biggest turn on, physically? I guess I would say eyes

6. Would you have sex w/ someone you weren't married too? No

7. Most hurtful way to break-up with someone?  Telling everyone except the person you are breaking up with

8. Ever regretted breaking up with someone? It has never happend

 I dunno where number 9 is ????

10. Do you miss any of your ex's? Never had one

11. If you could go on ONE DATE with any band member, who would it be? Maybe one of the girls from Superchick

12. What's your relationship status? Single

13. What's the corniest thing someone you dated did for you? I haven't been on any dates 

14. Last time you got flowers? I think my mom bought me some for secritaries day.

15. Are you ready to get into a serious relationship right now? Yes and no.

16. Do you like cuddling? Very Much 

17. Do you hold grudges? I try not to

18. Do you regret dating anyone? I haven't dated but there was this girl I kissed at a Christmas party (under the Mistletoe) and after that she was kind of stalking me. I regreted kissing her.

19. Hugger or kisser? Hugs

20. Missin someone? Too much, far too much

21. Most important lesson you've learned from dating? Don't Start too young

Where is number 22 ?????

23. Are you happier single or in a relationship? relationship

24. Whats the most important thing in a relationship? Love

25. What would make you break up w/ someone...no questions asked? Infidelity

26. Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back? It's happening right now

27??????

28. How important are looks? Looks are a good start but if she is rotten inside than looks aren't going to help.

29. How do you know when you are in love? When you haven't seen her in 2 years and you still can't stop thinking about her everyday

30. Do you consider yourself shy? Unfortunatley yes

31 ?????? god quite a few questions missing

32. Have you ever been turned down or turned someone down? I think yes on both

33. Have you ever been ashamed of anyone you were dating?Hasn't happened yet

34. Do you currently want to date anyone? Yes, a thousand times yes

35. Thing that made you the happiest today? I gave out Hand made Christmas cards 

36. Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of? Probably not

37. Do you stay friends w/ the people you date? Hasn't happened yet

39. Would you fight over someone you wanted to be with? Only if I had a chance with her

40. Do you kiss on the 1st date? Not really

41. Would you date someone A LOT older or younger than you? The woman I love is 3 and 1/2 years younger than me. I wouldn't go further than 5 years different

42. Does the person you currently like know you like them? I think so

43. Ever been cheated on? No

44. Do you think the word 'love' is overused? Far too much

45. Ever been called a whore? Only by myself

46. Favorite memory with an ex? Don't have one

47. If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them? If I really loved them yes but it would take a long time to win my trust back and they would only have one chance

49. Favorite ex? N/A

50. Wanna date any of your ex's? N/A

Sorry that this isn't more excited.

Spiritsfire

I finally got lucky.
I mean he cheated on me the weekend after we started going out.. but thats what he was talking about when he said he didnt deserve me.. And Ive never heard a guy say "I'm sorry" as much as he did.
Ussually I get jerks for boyfriends, But not him. He's so different from the other guys.

I too did not think guys like him existed. But I love him to death.. :D

omg, i kno just what you mean about albert! i understand that me and lano have a "friends w/ benefits, no strings attached" relationship, but i keep thinking about him constantly, and i don't want to. i hate it! i think it's because he was my first time. nancy told me it was inevitable that i feel that way. even if it is a friends w/ benefits relationship, there's always going to be some kind of emotional attachment. i just need to have a back-up, like your friend jessica said! haha.

congrats on the job!

call him, then at least you will know whether he is interested or not- i used to hate the whole waiting game!

Aww don't worry, maybe you haven't found the right one yet and who knows he might be someone you know and you just haven't opened your eyes, don't worry when you find them you'll know

Lulu  xx

THANK YOU! And I agree that they are.

Working at the hospital making big bucks? I need a better job.

when you least expect it

Lulu  xx

hey, ive just read your diary- i think this albert guy sounds nice, way nicer than rafael....

im going to add you to my favourites i hope you dont mind!

I hope you have a great time. I really like Maroon 5 too!! You should post some pics from the concert. That would be cool....
~Love Mystic

hey thats nice to hear ...but be aware of him maybe he's a player..

don't send your pics,,one day u guys might misunderstand or fight ...

anyways ..take care

best wishes

thankies for the comment :D I hope you and your best mate sort things out =]

Wahay you had sex congrats =] see I am still waiting for the right guy to come along for that lol!

Lulu  xx

I'm glad things turned out so well...I hope your Grandpa feels alright, and copes with it well =) Thank you for your positive comment, I'm trying my best to be there for Jen XD

Ruby

Thank you for the comment you left.

I'm really sorry about your grandfather. I hope he pulls through.

Tell him to eat a lot of grapefruit and cherries and drink Kombucha. It should cure his cancer if he gets it soon enough. You can buy Kombucha at most natural food stores.

Don't let anyone tell you that it doesn't work. They either work for the drug companies or else they are brainwashed by the drug companies.

Spiritsfire

i'm so sorry to hear about your grandpa. it must be so hard having to deal with something like this. i've never been in that kind of position before. you must have the strength of a lion to keep your head up they way you do right now. i hope everything goes well for you and your family. good luck.

thankies for your comment, and yeah I know my family love me and everything I just want my Jj to love me like he used to

Lulu  xx

I am really sorry about you Aunt. But I like what you said. "We should appreciate what we have, say what we feel, and enjoy life as it comes."

I really like that because no one really understands how luckey they are.

i love how you're so adamant about not crying! there's no guy in the world that deserves a woman's tears. don't let this loser have yours.